Frances H. Kakugawa
Hawai‘i Herald Columnist
Omoiyari . . . Think of others first and good karma will return to you. — Frances H. Kakugawa
I would like to inform your readers that I love BM, and this is not BS. My wife is incontinent and bedridden; for years I’ve been cleaning my wife daily — sometimes more than twice a day. Yes, at one time this was a task I wished I could avoid. I now recognize that her BM is a measure of her well-being and comfort. I have come to accept these daily chores as a moment of intimacy to be enjoyed.
Over the six years that I have been caring for my wife I’ve dealt with sundowners, chronic pain, constipation, non-conversations and the constant vigilance of protecting her from herself. Today, the physical act of caring for her is reduced to turning her side-to- side in bed, feeding and bathing. I see my wife unmindful of her surroundings and her countenance serenely accepting the unyielding devastation of Alzheimer’s. If she is accepting her plight, then I can fully accept mine. When it becomes time to clean her, I do so knowing full well this is the last activity we can share and I do it slowly, carefully, with baby wipes, cleansing foam and wiping gently until she is clean.
You have shared another act of intimacy between two people. We often think of sexual intimacy, which slowly becomes non-existent between caregivers and their partners or spouses, as that act of intimacy. You have taken us to another level, Bob. We often joke about BM always being on the agenda when caregivers get together and here you have turned this into an act of love. You are an amazing man.
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